Friday, 6 April 2018

I DON’T WANT TO LOSE FAITH




You gave me the birth

You gave me the mirth
You gave me no dearth
Of cheer on this earth.

Family did tug me along,
To everyone I did belong,
Enjoyed familial ties strong,
To me, life was on song.

Until…

You took away my father
But left me a caring mother
You took away my brother
But left me woes none other.

Then lightning cruel struck
My mother it did pluck
Dazed I was, in life’s muck
Unaware of riches in my luck.

In You, I lost implicit faith
Compensated losses thou saith
Given me a spouse, thou hath
Me, in her love, she did bathe.

Life was full, much to elate
Joy aplenty on its plate
Not a moment dull or sedate
Or a day that wasn’t great.

Life acquired a new meaning
It was a marathon of dreaming
Everything glossy and gleaming
From it, there was no weaning.

And then…

Dawned on me life’s reality
Ill health took her casualty
The reason was her frailty
Could not fight the actuality.

Nature’s writ final, they say
That no court could stay
Struggled to keep it at bay
Failed badly, to my dismay.

Sent myriad prayers unto thee
Life turned an incessant plea
Gone was mirth, gone was glee
Oh God! When’ll you set us free?


Fell on deaf ears, my entreaty
Before the Court of Almighty
You took from me, my sweetie,
Losing Faith, I turned to impiety.

Stared catastrophe head on
‘Morrow’ gone from lexicon
With life unable to carry on
For solace, progeny looks on.

And now…

Where will I find solace?
Anywhere in the cruel place
Life’s but an endless menace
Finding death is eternal chase.

Give me something to live for
And someone who’ll care for
Balm to soothe wounds galore
Having faith in You, a reason for.

Help me, merciful God Almighty
I don’t want to lose Faith in thee.

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Sunday, 25 March 2018

I AM TIME


I was there before you
I am there alongside you
I will be there after you.

I perish every moment
I rise very next moment
I flow eternally, too.

I am a flash for a smitten lover
I am an eon in a crisis tower
I love equal, am to none sour.

I am wasted by the lazy
I am utilised by the busy
I stay calm, never dizzy.

I do not return if I am gone
I still return in a new garb
I am an enigma to absorb.

I am at times tough on some
I am sometimes easy on some
I make variations, awesome.

I have a past and a future
I have no dimensions; yet
I am the fourth dimension.

I am measured in seconds
I am measured, too, in eons
I am bystander to man’s history.

I am adored in times that bubble
I am cursed in ages of trouble
I stand by whether tower or rubble.

I keep ticking, I am time.

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Thursday, 22 March 2018

बुरा न मानो, यह ज़िन्दगी है


वक़्त जो थम गया, पल पल का बुरा मानूँ?
हमसफ़र ने जो साथ छोड़ दिया, क़दम क़दम का बुरा मानूँ?
घायल जो होगया जंग-ए-ज़िन्दगी में, घाव घाव का बुरा मानूँ?
जीवन के दोराहे पे खड़ा हूँ, दिशा दिशा का बुरा मानूँ?
जीने से जो दम घुट रहा है, सांस सांस का बुरा मानूँ?
भला चाहे जो यार, उसकी बात बात का बुरा मानूँ?
बता ए रूह-ए-मजरूह, भला भला का बुरा मानूँ?


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Friday, 16 March 2018

MESSIAH


The eastern sky is lit in a resplendent orange hue. Everything under the sky – human or inanimate – is bathed in the beautiful bounty of Mother Nature. The cold air of the night is giving way to the gentle, warm breeze of a bright dawn.

The village wakes up to another day, only, that day was different, for it brings with it a man, a dark silhouette in the backdrop of a rising sun bleeding an orange tint all around. Silhouettes do not speak much, but what this one said was a lot. Long, shoulder-length, unkempt hair, a long thin staff in one hand, and knee-length loincloth around the waist, are not a common sight for the villagers.

Workers preparing to leave for tilling, housewives sweeping and watering their front yards and drawing colourful rangolis, and others just lazing in front of their homes look quizzically at the figure walking towards them in the dusty street.

As the figure approaches them closer and closer, the picture becomes clearer and clearer for the villagers. A tall lanky man in knee-length coarse cotton loincloth around the waist, and with long unkempt tresses parted in the middle, does not walk but gently glides through the street at a snail’s pace. The stranger accosts everyone whom he comes across.

A village elder greets him back and asks, “Who are you and where from are you, stranger?”

Politely refusing the offer of a seat, the stranger says, “I am from everywhere.”

“What is your name?”

“Whatever you call me by. You called me stranger. So be it.” The stranger smiles.

“Who are your parents?”

“With my biological parents safely in heaven, God Almighty is my father and mother.”

“Your answers are intriguing. They do not tell anything about you.”

“I am an open book. All answers are in it. It is up to the reader to read.”

“What do you do?”

“Bring peace to ravaged souls; at least, I try to.”

“Are you going to stay here?”

“Do you want me to? Is there a need?”

“I don’t know, but people are unhappy, in general.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know.”

“Is it only here or at other places, too?”

“Everywhere, I guess.”

“Have you heard of the universal axiom, ‘a contented man is a happy man’?”

“Our parents used to tell us about contentment.”

“So, what happened?”

“We forgot all that somewhere on the way.”

“Why? You have progressed much with all the technology at your disposal.”

“That’s what we all thought.”

“So, what happened?”

“Everything went awry. Our problems only increased and happiness decreased in an inverse proportion.”

“Sad.”

“There used to be plenty; food grains, water, clean air and, above all, time. We used to spend much time with our families.”

“And, now?”

Sigh…sigh…“Stranger, you look familiar. Are you from Bethlehem?”

The stranger smiles. “Maybe.”

“Or from Mecca, or Lumbini, or Porbandar, or Atlanta?”

“I am from wherever you want me to be from.”

“You have told us nothing about you.”

“I am no stranger to you although you call me by that name. I am born in every age in every place. I was born in Dwapara yug in a jail cell in Mathura. I was born in every place that you mentioned - Bethlehem, Mecca, Lumbini, Porbandar, and Atlanta. I look familiar to you because you have seen me in every epoch. In every epoch, I was killed by tyrants and zealots…because I loved nonviolence and peace …because I preached nonviolence, love, and peace…because I practised nonviolence, love, and peace. I will be killed now, too. I will be born again and shall be killed again by another tyrant. I strive to bring a reign of nonviolence, love, and peace on God’s beautiful earth. That is my mission given to me by the Almighty.”

“Now, I find nothing but hatred and strife on this pathetic planet. You mentioned ‘plenty’. Where have those ‘plenties’ gone? I find that one who asks the inconvenient question is exterminated by any available means – dog-bone whip, crown of thorns, spear, guillotine, lion, bullet, dagger, sword, fire, or bomb. There is paucity for everything - food, water, clean air, and, above all, love. Greed rules this planet now. I am striving to bring peace, at least to one human, one family. I admit, I am finding it difficult. Labours of Hercules are childsplay compared to mine.

“You spend billions on deadly armaments when a huge chunk of population does not have a morsel to eat, a rag to cover their bodies, or a slate to write upon. You forget that the earth is but one nation. You perpetuate the mistake of Babel. You, with your ingenuity, make it worse for personal gains. You divide populations on religious, caste, class, and colour lines. You exterminate six millions of a particular sect, for you attribute reasons for all your failures to them. You do not use your knowledge for peaceful and progressive purposes but create deadly nuclear and chemical weapons and exterminate thousands and thousands of innocent populations. You practise and preach apartheid and untouchability.

“You introduce religious insanity and mercilessly slay thousands, while you let millions suffer without food, water, and clean air. You pollute the ground, the water, and the air, which God Almighty has bestowed upon you. You give your children’s hand deadly weapons instead of a pencil. You give in your children’s stomachs killer drugs instead of a glass of milk. You worship goddesses yet you treat women as vassals. You deny them education, freedom, and basic human dignity. You lust for them and use them as sex objects.

“This is the only planet where millions of such unique life forms exist. Your lifestyle destroys thousands of species every day. Millions of lives are lost regularly stricken by floods, drought, storms, avalanches, landslides, earthquakes, and tidal waves. The salubrious climates created by God Almighty are eroded. Your seasons are changing, thus creating havoc in human life.

“Yet, you do not learn from your mistakes, either as individuals or as nations. You rescind the cosmic philosophy that your generation has merely borrowed the earth and the universe from your children’s generation. You degrade the environment as if there is no tomorrow. You do not even realise that it is your children and their children who suffer. Babies are born with incurable breathing diseases. Yet you are blind to reality.

“Wake up at least now, for there is no tomorrow for this planet. Spread peace and love. Follow the path shown by the pacifists of yore. Follow the simple philosophies propounded by them. How can I help you if you do not help yourself? Let charity begin at home. Let reform begin with one human – yourself. Let it begin now.”

The village elder was silent for long minutes.

“Are you a messiah?”

“Why do you need a messiah to tell you what to do?”

“Are you a pagan? To which religion do you belong?”

“Oh my God! I cannot help these people. Take me unto thee, never to return.”

“He teaches us wrong philosophies. He insults our gods. He is an atheist. Stone him, stone him to death…” The chorus grows.

Then fall the stranger.

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Tuesday, 27 February 2018

MY JOURNEY INTO THE WORLD OF WRITING – XII

Psst…a personal secret. Do not reveal it to anyone. Okay?

Horror stories and movies frighten me, even at this age.

The stories I read and the movies I saw during my youth (sigh…sigh…sooo looong ago…) were ineffective (most of them I did not understand, anyway).


Even “Rose Mary’s Baby”, Roman Polanski’s all-time classic that was considered the best ever horror movie, had no effect on me, for I did not understand it, then. I was not much into reading English novels or watching English movies those days.







Then, I came across two of the best movies in the genre, William Peter Blatty’s “The Exorcist” and David Seltzer’s “The Omen”. Many more came and went, many more will come and go, but they will all remain but puny pathetic patches on these two. Even the sequels paled in comparison to these two.






While I regard “The Omen” to be in the genre of frightening supernatural stories, I place “The Exorcist” in the genre of pure, unadulterated horror. It frightens the daylights out of me, even today. This being the case, when I myself took to writing, how can I not be inspired by it? Tell me.

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With this backdrop, I continued my journey towards my next station. I longed to pay tributes to William Peter Blatty through the medium of a horror story. Thus came into being my “OUIJA ADVENTURE”.

There isn’t much of suspense in it but an attempt at horror. Pazuzu, a daemon in Assyrian and Babylonian mythology, became my prop, as it did with William Peter Blatty. Remember, this was the daemon, which possessed and tormented the little American girl, Regan Teresa MacNeil. However, my story does not enter the realm of possession or exorcism. It is much simpler than that.

A group of four school friends with a grossly misplaced sense of adventure decides to experiment with an Ouija board and invoke the daemon Pazuzu. The experiment goes horribly out of control and the four friends meet with terrible consequences.

I kept the narration simple without going overboard with the supernatural and horror stuff. This narrative style of mine may be the reason why many readers feel my writings to be anaemic :( . You tell me.

I gave the story an open-ended denouement. Does it mean that there could be a sequel, say OUIJA ADVENTURE-II? Who knows, there could be. In fact, there was, a year later. However, that is food for later thought. Let us, at present, enjoy the first Ouija Adventure; be spooked would be a better of expression.

Well, see you later, friends, boo… ;-)

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Friday, 23 February 2018

MY JOURNEY INTO THE WORLD OF WRITING – XI

The next station in my journey was “Mission Accomplished (Over and Out).” Sounds like Forces’ language, right? Right, it is.

My knowledge of the Armed forces and their operations was/is rudimentary, derived from books and movies. I was, am, and will always be in awe of the Forces and their selfless sacrifices to the cause of preserving and protecting our nation. I wanted to express this sentiment and my gratitude to them through this short story.

The story itself was a simple one. A Captain is assigned an important task of blowing away an army fuel and ammunition storage yard of the enemy (guess who). How he and his two junior officers of the team achieve it forms the story.

You are right. What is great about this story? We have read innumerable books and watched innumerable movies on the subject, maybe better ones. My purpose behind this narrative was different from the ostensible one of army action. I have realised long ago that I eat, sleep, and live under the protective blanket of safety provided by our armed forces. Period. As a common man, I do not get a chance to acknowledge this fact and say, “Thanks,” every day and hence, this story. In fact, I made my point directly by the statement of the Defence Minister, which goes thus: “…It is because of your vigil at our borders that we citizens are able to sleep fearlessly and peacefully in our homes across this great nation…We are beholden to you…”

My purpose achieved, I went on to add a twist, a huge twist, to the story. This is based on the key phrase - “…in our homes across this great nation…” - of the Defence Minister’s speech. I brought this out through a name, Alka. I admit to you that this became inscrutable and caused immense confusion even at the draft stage. Even my near and dear could not understand my point. I thought, ‘This is disastrous,” and went on to amend it by adding two place names. Even the amended version was confusing but spoon-feeding was anathema to me; it still is and will always be. The reader is intelligent and smart.  She/he must understand it on her/his own.

The story received a modest readership (Reads: 248 and no likes and comments till date). Follow the link I furnished at the beginning of the post to read the story. I hope you enjoy it.

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I am a student of Late Alistair MacLean. He is a great influence on me through, what I call his “descriptive prose” and his deliberately paced action sequences. This story relies less on the spoken word and more on imagery and descriptive prose. I sincerely hope that you like it.

Oops…I almost forgot to mention something important (to me, at least).

In this series, I am posting my short stories in the chronological order. I request you to follow the series carefully. It will give an insight on how the writer in me evolved (if at all) over a period of time. Who knows? One of my readers may even find it useful! Unreasonably hopeful, eh?

See you again with my next post. Until then stay safe, folks.


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Wednesday, 21 February 2018

MY JOURNEY INTO THE WORLD OF WRITING – X

Leave behind the long, continue in shorts…oops…short, I mean!

Having gained a semblance of confidence in writing in the short(er) format I moved on into fiction writing.

The title chosen by me was “Till Death Do Us Unite”. The phrase “Till Death Do Us Part” had always intrigued me. It is a vow, which a Christian couple takes at the time of wedding. It means that nothing other than one partner’s dying can end the marriage or separate them.

While the vow is for living married couple, my story has a twist, which is not revealed till the very end. It was all rather complicated in the beginning and I did not decide upon the title initially. Finally, what I wanted to convey through my story – i.e. the husband and wife are united by death – gave me the title!

To end my verbal diarrhea on a philosophical note, it is widely believed that, in every human, there is a soul (atma) that is imperishable and eternal. After a human dies, the soul dons another form and is reborn. Until such time, it lingers. So must be the case with the husband and wife of my story, right?

Follow the link given above to unravel the mystery of love-after death!

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The next one was “Mission Accomplished (Over and Out).”

Well that is fodder for thought in my next post.

Auf wiedersehen.

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